Monday, September 17, 2007

expectations.

sometimes we set it on people who are close to us.
then it breaks our hearts and hurts them when such
expectations that are set are not met.

JUST expect. right.

it only works with God doesnt it.
like we've gotta go to Him expecting something.
and we'll be fulfilled.


well.
sometimes i think i worry too much.

but anyway.
i have fallen sick.
due to overworking myself.
exhaustion perhaps.
i didnt know it would happen.
but it did anyway.
so yes.

sigh.
i worry about the future when its not even here.
i worry about having to stretch out my hand to get $$.
cus' i dont feel like doing that no more.
until i'm sure there'll be much more available
from which i get them from.

sigh.
getting a driving license.
it was one of the dreams i had since a kid

well seems i cant see it through.
i'm not capable of doing so.

raaahhs`

annoying the hell outta me.

damnit.
why was i so careless.
why wasnt i watchful enough.

how could i not have controlled myself.
argh.

sickening.
i'm working my ass off.
but its all not enough.
wth.

birthdays are expensive. hahaha.
but i dont regret spending for people i love =D
i love to see their smiles.

i cant wait to see what the mothership has to say
when she sees my hair.

i'm sticking to my hair this way.
i like it.
just waiting for the longer side and my fringe
to grow faster.

then i'll stick to having one side shaved.
yayy. nicenice.
so i dont lose the spunk and the edginess.
WOOHOO!

madness.
i'm going on a diet.
my weight is soooo -__-
unpredictable. one moment it shoots up.
the next it goes down.

WTH.
the perfect weight for me is 42kg.
i was 43, then i ate and ate 48, then diet and back to 45.
gained 5kg lost 3kg.
damnit.
okay. 3 more to go.

i'm SO GONNA EAT APPLES AND BROCOLLI everyday.
ha. yea right.
not forgetting my bananas to calm the sweet tooth cravings.
madness.
i should just start exercising again laa.
whalau.